unfinished interview?

Somebody asked, why I would be afraid of joining the police or of them hiring me, maybe even actual protection instead of being a target that gets hurt fighting for them, defending them, standing for them, asking questions that get people to think.

I started creating the election process beyond an idea including a survey of arrestees back in 2019-2021 plus recovery groups for themselves and first responders, with added educational options, mentorship, more training in: de-escalation mental health, chemical dependency,recovery, redemption, reformation it eternal punishment, community relations, stranger danger, the D.A.R.E. to D.R.E.A.M. program, education about and for runaways, how to determine and detect false victims was added  2021-2023 false testimony, manipulation, copies, fakes, cons, 2020-21+ more training about prostitutes, trafficking even of themselves their departments, communities and more. Trauma Educator and formed Care training ,education and how , where, who,  ETC for different ages, places, cultures, genders, and more.

So why nervous? Why a yes and a no , your regular answer first?
Yes as far as I know. People samed me within seconds to minutes, hours, days up to a week or more to no less than 2 other continents. Whatever the question mostly it's never an all or always or never. Which I learned from DBT: black and white thinking,absolutes which is always or never somebody else Michigan Ohio Illinois Indiana is it's rarely all or none. Copycats are sad to me and they change things slightly so that they don't sound to others in case somebody else heard me the same, a Samee Jaimee is a term I came up with due to a SWF experience, not the first time either 1998 was the other in Maplewood MN.
My answer of yes and no comes from the question being to open ended, I usually need narrowing of it or multiple questions to answer which usually leads or has the person asking clarify or rephrase or expand upon or think 💬 of more or adds to their understanding of how I interpreted the question as well. I am not a scientist I said 2010-11 I can't or don't answer in a 100% answer, I can estimate, calculate, average etc even my own mind or behavior and I am only so predictable even to myself. I asked years ago because somebody asked me, about Don't you know yourself though? And I said no, do we ever really know all the facets, corners, closets, baggage or luggage, zombies, skeletons, nuances, memories cohesive and tangibly there like it was yesterday all of them, the whys of why we did something, want to or don't want to do something, why we procrastinate or get something done or out of the way,vour facial expressions, body language, what we say how we say or said it, who we have as ___________(friend, confidant, activity partner, accountability partner, mentor, hero, villain, roomate, colleague, therapist, Alison, lawyer etc.), why we used to do or say ___________ and we modified or don't now, the list is long and may never be complete and that's just trying to understand myself.

maybe your energy is Big Brother like,  So maybe it might be because someone believes, maybe 🤔 knows at least a little truth, scary.
My scars make me more beautiful is my quote, someone asked me to explain that or elaborate and I did, not knowing that somebody stole it and couldn't answer the question and asked for space or something in order to be able to fully understand it even themselves. People recording me ,people stalking me and Selena Nyx is a name I chose as a shadow book name when I got interested in Wicca in the early 90's. When my grandfather died in 1990, May 13th Mothers Day, I lost faith I cursed God out loud and quit. Catholicism had really not reached me, The Selena Nyx, name in the early 90's was not anybody any of you know, night night is it's meaning but not their meaning you'd have to ask me.